Sunday, September 14, 2014

Haunt my Dreams

I am a dreamer.
I tend to have fabulous dreams.
Most of the time they are clear and detailed and fun to be in.
I dream of magical things while my body sleeps, sometimes I can't quite put into words the dreams I have.
Many times I dream of people and places long past.
A high school friend, a missionary companion, a loved one who has passed on.
Those are the dreams I look forward to most.
It's like just for a moment they haven't left and the love we shared is still very much alive.
Maybe it's because I love too deeply and the love never really leaves me, it's always there and the only way I have access to it is through my subconscious.
What ever the reason, I crave these dreams.
My heart longs to feel those people and places and times.

My heart has been breaking all week.
The other day as I sat in the hospital bed with my sweet friend, Kathy, her hospital room felt like an extension of heaven.
  She and her husband talked to me about the prognosis.
They told me that they had sat their young children down and told them that their mommy was going to die.
These are the same young, sweet children who have grown up right beside my own.
We'd have weekly play dates while our children ran and played in the park or at my house in the living room while we spent a few precious hours talking the time away.
We'd spend hours together for the last 4 years talking, time that seemed to fly by.
Time that I never thought would end like this.
As they told me these things I cried, and cried and cried, I couldn't find words to speak.
They seemed to know she would only have a few short days left in this life.
Their faith in the Lord is inspirational and comforting.
When I could finally speak through my tears I told Kathy to come and haunt my dreams.
She promised she would.

How weird that we're in the same position

“I think we dream so we don’t have to be apart for so long. If we’re in each other’s dreams, we can be together all the time.”  ~A.A. Milne Winnie-the-Pooh

What I wouldn't give for one more carefree Summer day at the park with you and your laughter.
But if all I can hope for are some nights with your radiant smile in my dreams, I'll take it!
God be with you til we meet again, my sweet, sweet friend!

“We'll be Friends Forever, won't we, Pooh?' asked Piglet.
Even longer,' Pooh answered.”

“If you live to be a hundred, I want to live to be a hundred minus one day so I never have to live without you.”

“If ever there is tomorrow when we're not together... there is something you must always remember. You are braver than you believe, stronger than you seem, and smarter than you think. But the most important thing is, even if we're apart... I'll always be with you.”

“How lucky I am to have something that makes saying goodbye so hard.”

“Some people care too much. I think it's called love.”
~A.A. Milne Winnie-the-Pooh

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1 comment:

Virginia said...

My heart is breaking for you. I admire the way you put your thoughts and feelings on paper. You are a TERRIFIC woman!